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BUT MY OBJECTION TO "NATIONALIST RELIGIOUS" IS THAT THEIR WILLINGNESS TO REDUCE "THE ONE ONLY GOD", THE FIRST PRINCIPLE OF PANCASILA. I DONT UNDERSTAND THAT BIG FIGURE LIKE MR. SBY HAS THIS KIND OF MINDSET EVEN URBANINGRUM ALTHOUGH HE WAS CHAIRMAN OF HMI. OR MAY BE THEIR CONCEPT WAS NOT LIKE WHAT IN MY PERCEPTION ? I AGREE TO "SPIRITUALIST NATIONALIST" ALTHOUGH I PREFER TO BE HUMANIST, ACTUALLY !!!




I was looking for my NEW job in years but it IS very, very difficult but finally I tried to make money through ONLINE business where I already purchased $1,000 with NO return even I was nearly cheated US$ 3,750 ...... I registered to teens of PTC/PTR (paid to click, paid to read like million-mails or silvana-mails) don't pay real money but a kind of little space to advertise, making and recruiting referral is the most difficult, HYIP (high yield investment program usually with e-gold online payment website) TO ME is totally cheater, I paid some of them between $1-$20 with NO return !!These are only several online business where I still active/as paid member which I still trust as true online business :

http://www.e-gold.com/e-gold.asp?cid=3075014 http://www.kontera.com/justinus
(click - free register) http://www.e-toro.com/ is online forex trade broker (there are much other online broker but this one I tried and believe) where I learn carefuly how to make money by my own fingers with starting deposit $50, you can register if interested but I don't know, you can yuse name : justinus, as your referral.

I owe too much in life !

click to search I don't know I owe too much in life to my children, my wife and also my family even my societies, very big owe to God. Yes because there are much things that I didn't accomplish yet till my time comes, much sins and too much unpaid moral obligations, in debt of gratitude to life ...I thought, will able pay all if I've much money, but it seems not possible ...now it is my main obsession ; I pray hard and think hard and wish God the almighty give me chances and more time ...and that's why I am (also as board member of Catholic brotherhood community) expecting any donation which I'll distribute to the most need peoples ; can be sent through alert pay, e-gold or pay pal. Very sorry and thank you in advance.


justinus

http://www.e-gold.com/e-gold.asp?cid=3075014

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See it's very interesting :Zeitgeist - The Movie : revealed much things behind religion, terrorism, and of course politics, quoted some experts opinions ... but please do not take anything for granted ........
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*And the newest ninja action (LOL) ha...ha..ha.....
Urban Ninja !!
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POET - Federico Garcia Lorca

Landscape of a Vomiting Multitude

The fat lady came out first,
tearing out roots and moistening drumskins.
The fat lady
who turns dying octopuses inside out.
The fat lady, the moon's antagonist,
was running through the streets and deserted buildings
and leaving tiny skulls of pigeons in the corners
and stirring up the furies of the last centuries' feasts
and summoning the demon of bread through the sky's clean-swept hills
and filtering a longing for light into subterranean tunnels.
The graveyards, yes the graveyards
and the sorrow of the kitchens buried in sand,
the dead, pheasants and apples of another era,
pushing it into our throat.

There were murmuring from the jungle of vomit
with the empty women, with hot wax children,
with fermented trees and tireless waiters
who serve platters of salt beneath harps of saliva.
There's no other way, my son, vomit! There's no other way.
It's not the vomit of hussars on the breasts of their whores,
nor the vomit of cats that inadvertently swallowed frogs,
but the dead who scratch with clay hands
on flint gates where clouds and desserts decay.

The fat lady came first
with the crowds from the ships, taverns, and parks.
Vomit was delicately shaking its drums
among a few little girls of blood
who were begging the moon for protection.
Who could imagine my sadness?
The look on my face was mine, but now isn't me,
the naked look on my face, trembling for alcohol
and launching incredible ships
through the anemones of the piers.
I protect myself with this look
that flows from waves where no dawn would go,
I, poet without arms, lost
in the vomiting multitude,
with no effusive horse to shear
the thick moss from my temples.

The fat lady went first
and the crowds kept looking for pharmacies
where the bitter tropics could be found.
Only when a flag went up and the first dogs arrived
did the entire city rush to the railings of the boardwalk.

Count...by each .... !!

Now I am retire. Times before and after the "H day" I undergo very intensive wrestle even after a year later, perhaps it is what peoples said : post power syndrom - which actually much math to big peoples as Army General, high grade official, ministers etc., and not for ordinary people like me. But it really happened to me ! I even change my principle in life that life is for good mission, we are a kind of God ambasador ... then at this conflict within and exhaustedly I change my principle in life that the question about life must NOT "what for does your life ?" and the TRUE must be "HOW does your life, how is life, How does life ?! Meant that I tent to trust to hedonism ... It is because I failed prepare my post retirement periode, let say a certain routin and productive activities. Before the "H day" I strived hard to get postphonement and after the "H day" I tried hard to make my days productive meant make money as usual. Useless !!! I loose a lot money, frustration before finally surender. Desperate and depressed brought me to contemplate with my total spiritual, mental and emotional wrestle.

I don't know it was very simple way that in the morning while I was browsing I sing :"Count your bless each by each .... you'll know the sum later ....." I got at Office prayer community which consist of all Christian sects, Catholic, Protestant and also Pentakosta worshipers. Now I am RE-AWARED I was born naked, departed to Jakarta with nothing except my couples clothes, even when I was student I always drained after the 15th day each month, untill my fist job for years !

Now I stay at not too bad home with more than 300m2 landscape with wonderful wife and two adult children and nice neighbourhood ..... there is not new car but still very good to ride, two funny dogs .... count, by each your bless, and you will know the sum later .... Halleluya...thanks to God, please forgive me ..... for my not gratefulness .....

God gave me good job .....

It was nearly 3o years ago when I was still at my 25 years of age. I can not cover the most of my expenditures although I was already working along the day and go to my lecture at night. Perhaps difficulties brought me mental illness so that I got depression disease which perhaps part of brain damage and my Central Nervous System was in trouble. I was hospitalized for a month. At the first day I work after hospital treatment I got a phone call from somewhere reminded my application (it was sent perhaps 5 years ago, I didn't remember anymore) and asked me to come. In short they recruited me as their employee with reasonable salary. I was crying and thanks to God because the days before my Dad asked my older brothers to collect money together to cover my monthly cost (actually I didn't agree but I can not refuse) means that now I can pay myself. When I asked my boss someday at Hotel about the time he called me, he replied that he even do not know that I was in big troubles, he said "perhaps God also". Then I remember the Bible written "don't you worry to your days, because God help you at the exact time when you need to ! This what I would like to tell you, my friends, that I am an eye witness, and there are much more bless I will like to tell you next time.

Seven deadly sins .....

Gandhi's Seven Deadly Sins (Mohandas Karamachand Gandhi, considered these traits to be the most spiritually perilous to humanity ) :
 Wealth without Work
 Pleasure w/o Conscience
 Science without Humanity
 Knowledge w/o Character
 Politics without Principle

 Commerce w/o Morality

 Worship without Sacrifice

The seven virtuosness :
 Chastity (purity)
 Moderation (self-restraint)
 Generosity (vigilance)
 Zeal (integrity)
 Meekness (composure)
 Charity (giving)
 Humility (humbleness)

How to share the world's bread .... !?

Mutually completing (combination) of :

* Competitions (business, sciences, sport) to

make money.
* Charity.
* Cooperations (business, sciences, sport) to

profit sharing.
* Exchange.
(quoted from Janson Sinamo)

She's also our global representative ......

In your mind

Song written by : Anggun C. Sasmi

I don’t want to believe

And I don’t want to live

By the excuses

Of your weakness
Cause a woman should do

What she wants to do

There is no reason

For your shallow aggravation
[Chorus:]

Nothing wrong with this dress I wear

Nothing wrong with this smile I dare

Nothing wrong with my long black hair

It’s all in your mind, in your mind
Nothing wrong with these legs you see

Nothing wrong with this lean body

And nothing wrong with the woman in me

It’s all in your mind, in your mind
I just want to be sure

Don’t want anymore

You’re calling out names

Oh what a shame
Just open your mind

Then maybe you’ll find

That there’s no reason

For your shallow aggravation
[Chorus:]

Nothing wrong with this dress I wear

Nothing wrong with this smile I dare

Nothing wrong with my long black hair

It’s all in your mind, in your mind

This is the time

To change your mind

There’s still a chance

To change your mind

It’s plain to see

From anywhere

That the only thing wrong is your irritating mind.

Eye witness ....

I am personal eye witness, that God is working through my life and your life too but, it would be depended to our response. We have much proofs .... (need one ? ask me anytime ...tks., see you and stay blessed).
rgds,
justinus

God Bless You !

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Best rgds,
justinus t.m.